In a funk...

Okay so I know that I have been missing for a long while now. Not sure if anyone even reads this silly thing. I will admit it I have been in a funk. This last year has been probably the hardest year of my life. I think everyday how I would change it if I could go back in time. See some of you know cause you keep up with my SIL who is an awesome blogger unlike me. I was suppose to have a baby girl on October the 17th of last year but back in May I started having problems. I was put on bed rest where I stayed until June 19th when we lost our baby girl. I was 24 weeks along. Hearing the words that we have lost the baby is gut wrenching to say the least. Then to have to deliver your daughter that you never get to hear laugh or cry. I think everyday about her and wonder which one of the other kids she would have been like or would she have been completely different. I struggle with her loss everyday. I know where she is at and that she is waiting on me to get there. I was told tonight that God is good and in complete control and I truly believe in that.



So, part of my New Year's resolution is to get out of my funk. But since I have had a few health problems come up after the first of the year my resolution is being put to the test. My problems aren't major and they will get better with time. So hopefully soon you will start seeing more of me here.
I have started a photoblog that I am trying to post on everyday. It's a challenge to get out and use my camera more and to learn some more about photography. So, I hope to catch up with you all soon.