Dragons

I have a bad problem of holding in all of my frustrations, anger, and disappointments. I don't speak my mind at all. I avoid confrontations at all cost. I am a bottler, it all builds up until I can't take it anymore then I explode. Kinda like a dragon, except I end up bringing up something that might have bothered me 6 months ago and people don't seem to get what is really bothering me at the time. I have always been that way, I can't help it. I would love to tell people when they tick me off and at that moment not worry that they will be upset with me. I know there is always a time and a place for it. But, just once I would like to tell someone that you have hurt me at the moment it happens and not just bottle it up.

My oldest is a dragon like me, as much as I don't want her to be she is. I can't help it, I have tried to get her to tell someone when they have upset or hurt her feeling but she won't. I have a feeling that something in her life is about to change that she isn't going to like. I am not sure how to handle it. It is going to affect her whole summer.

That being said what do you do when you know someone is going to do something that is going to upset on of your children? I don't mean just by telling them "No you can't do that" but, something that is going to really upset them. What do you do when someone makes a promise to them that they have no intention to keep, especially when it is a close family member?

I hate the Kansas wind.

The wonderful Kansas wind was horrific today. That is really an understatement. It started this morning and is still going strong. Not only are my eyes full of dirt, but I was almost blown away this morning. I went to pick up the youngest cowgirl from a sleepover and she was actually blown down. I thought it was a little funny but her on the other hand didn't think so.
We decided it was a lost cause to do anything productive outside today so, we were in playing the Wii and watching movies. When our horse boarder came to the door to tell my hubby that the door to his building was about to be blown off. When he and I get out there yep it is off it's hinges and about to fall down. The only thing we could do at the time was to help it all the way to the ground. We didn't want it to blow over at the wrong time and someone get hurt.


We also have a new skylight in the same building that we now have only one door too. The problem is I wonder who is going to climb up there to fix the damage.



Then there is the loafing shed that already took a beating last weekend from the heavy snow. The roof was partially caved in from the weight of the snow sitting on it. We had closed the gate so the horses coulnd't get in there and get hurt. The wind today finished the roof off.




Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Irratated..

Okay so one of my resolutions is that I am going to blog more often so some of this may get boring. I have a facebook account and I was told today that I need to update my pictures on there. I was reminded that I take 12 million pictures and I should have at least a few that I want to put on there. So, being the good person that I am came home and tried to upload a few pictures. Well facebook asked me to install active-x which I did about twelve times and it still won't let me upload the pics. Every time I get close, it ask es me to install again. I tried to install then shut the whole thing down and start again, that didn't work either. Do after about 50 minutes of fighting with it, I have given up. If any one knows what I am doing wrong feel free to let me know.


On more of a serious note. I have a best friend who is going through a really tough time in her life right now. She has chosen to turn to alchol to help her with her life. She knows that she needs help and has seeked out help twice now and received treatment. But keeps going back to the bottle. Her family is awesome. Supporting her in EVERY way possible. Us friends have are beyond supportive. I have personally defended her in any way possible even to my husband.(Which has caused some arguments between he and I) My problem is she was "clean" for 30 days and her life started to look up. But, for some reason she chose to drink again even when things are good. She caused her self to end up in the ER and scared everyone in her life. So, how do I continue to defend her when I don't understand why she chose to go back. Plus, I am having a hard time being supportive without being very mad at her. I know what the right thing to do is, that is be supportive and here for her in anyway possible but, I am just having a hard time.
So that is just my little vent for the day. We had a "Christmas" program for the oldest cowgirl tonight. (It has postponed before Christmas because of the weather.) I am going to post pictures of her program and little cowboys,his actually got done before Christmas. But, that will have to wait till tomorrow cause I need to head off to bed.